Friday, June 13, 2008

A Break-through... A tiny ray of hope....

I joined Big Music in the month of Jan 08, I was very happy about getting back to my own industry...Event management...
An awesome office... good colleagues...I was all set to enjoy my sparkling new job...
It got off to a good start.. with a couple of events... However... it was not to be....as time went by... there were no events happening...
The management was obviously not amused...!!!
On top of that people I thought to be my friends .. did a 'volt e face' ... as if that was not enough...I heard people complaining about me on issues which were alien to me...
While I was grappling with these issues, I got to know that the person whom I respected & trusted the most... was actually behind the whole scheme of things...
Disillusioned & disheartened, I withdrew... putting up my defenses... almost like a tortoise... I stopped interacting with everyone... just went to office... rushed to meetings... made presentations & cost sheets...
Nothing seemed to be materializing... I was in utter despair...I had really started feeling tensed about the whole thing I lost sleep and was slowly getting into a state of depression...losing confidence in my ability...
I couldn't share this with my parents, because I knew it would worry them... & I couldn't tell my brother either ... the poor guy has enough on his plate anyway...

A colleague of mine who knew the whole story, realised what was happening and told me..." Dont withdraw into yourself this way... you will just push people away... thats a very negative approach.. you will suddenly become lonely..."
That was when I decided.. I was not in office to win a favourites contest... I had to prove my mettle....I was not a loser... I needed to fight back...

Thats exactly what I did... I kept working... calling & meeting prospective clients ...
In office... I slowly worked on interacting normally with my co-workers...Colleagues are colleagues not friends... (something new I learnt... coz in organizations I had worked earlier had yielded me a few very good friends...)

And then it gave... A sudden break-through... my sincere hard work paid off...
I just hope I am not saying this too soon.... but I think that I have atlast broken the jinx...!!!
I got My first work order after joining BIG MUSIC!!!

I think I should take this oppertunity to thank a few of my friends who pulled me out of the 'wallowing in self -pity mode' .... "Always remember,You are the best!!!" they said..." keep faith in yourself... all will be well..."
Thank you Dada... Thank you Mozz...God bless you...
I also remembered something my Ma, (who is an ardent fan of 'Sant Kabir') keeps telling me... "Sab din jaat na ek samana" meaning that there will always be ups & downs in life .. all days will not be the same... one should neither be too overconfident nor lose hope...
Ma... no matter how much we agree to disagree on certain issues... I am grateful to the Almighty for gifting me such an 'irritatingly wonderful' mother... (muuuuuuuuuaaaaah!)
As for Papa... he can never believe that his tomboyish daughter can ever... EVER lack confidence.... Love you Pa!!

2 comments:

Duke said...

Hey...
Be it the first of many to come. But, I would say that don't be this serious on something you do to enjoy. Take it easy and everyhting will fall in line.....

Roy said...

On top of that people I thought to be my friends .. did a 'volt e face' ... as if that was not enough...I heard people complaining about me on issues which were alien to me...

Friend, thats why it's called as CORPORATE not CO-OPrate!!

I belive you know this song from the movie, Amar Prem. It goes:

Tu Kaun Hain Tera Naam Hai Kya
Sita Bhi Yahaan Badnaam Huyi
Phir Kyun Sansaar Ki Baaton Se
Bheeg Gaye Tere Naina
Kuch To log Kahenge, Logoka Kaam Hi Kahena ..